Trembling on the edge…
I am incandescent this morning. I feel as though I’m glowing with this luminous, radiant joy that has me going about my morning singing and smiling. I’m exhausted and I’ve had about 3 hours of sleep, but I feel like I could conquer the world.
I’ve been dating someone for five weeks and I have never, ever felt this way about anyone. It’s absolutely incredible…and terrifying! Five weeks is not very long at all. I have to accept this incredible feeling might be fleeting; we might discover we’re completely wrong for each other. I might end up terribly hurt (which, after the emotional gutting of my last relationship, makes me feel really nervous). Yet…every moment I’m with him feels natural and right. I feel like a teenager, wanting to draw hearts around our initials.
It’s too soon to fall for someone, so I’m trembling on the edge of the fall, trying to let common sense keep me grounded. Only more time will tell which way this is going to go. One thing I’ve learned is that there are no guarantees; so for now, I’m taking this radiant joy and wrapping myself in it for as long as possible.
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